There are definitely two very powerful forces pulling my heart strings this way and that.
Sometimes pulled by compassion – in enthusiasm I thrive.
Flying high – I’m happy – alive!
Other times pulled by self-loathing – I dive.
Down in the misery of despairing.
A festering hive of…blah.
“What is wrong with me?” I ask.
“Nothing,” a soft voice declares.
“Everything,” a harsh one yells.
“You are amazing!” Someone whispers.
“You are pathetic.” Someone else screams.
I think I can still make out a faint and distant, “I love you,” behind the “you’ll never be enough” shouts and cries.
My head knows what’s true….I think…but the pain in my chest and the shouting distorts what I think I know.
So hard to see clearly with a heart bent out of shape.
But not today.
I’m done with the shouting – I’m finished with lies. I’m kicking them out – it’s time to be wise.
I see where I left the door cracked to my heart – neglecting those small things – I see my own part.
So I’m locking it up.
This is my life. This is my heart. This is my place where lies have no part.
This is my day. I’m a force too. Take a hike lies, I’m finished with you.
How about you?
Yes…there are legitimate forces pulling us all this way and that. No use denying it. There is a negative, heavy, oppressive darkness that would engulf us in misery if we let it.
But there is also light and love and peace and freedom, ever ready to pierce the dark veil.
We are the deciding factor when it’s all said and done.
We tip the scales one way or the other.
And it happens in the small, seemingly insignificant choices we make moment by moment. Do we shut the door to light or let it in?
What will you choose to think? What will you choose to do right now?
I’m going running. I’m going to write. I’m going to spend a few moments reveling in truth and my own vision of life instead of opening the door to distraction like I did the last few days.
Remember…there are actually 3 powerful forces at work…because you’re a force too!
You are the deciding factor in your own fate today.
Will you be happy or live in dismay?
The littlest things decide the biggest results.
Make Today Amazing.