An Endless Recovery Loop

Chapter 8 – The Truth Shall Set You Free   An Endless Recovery Loop That week as the kids were out of school, I actually ventured out to a movie with the family and shopping with Nan.  Wow, a taste of normal life!  But it was not normal of course.  I still had toxic gas Read More…

Forget About ‘How’. You Won’t See It. It’s Off Your Radar Screen.

[headline_arial_small_centered color=”#000000″]There Is No Bad Day[/headline_arial_small_centered] [headline_tahoma_small_left color=”#000000″]Emotional Trauma[/headline_tahoma_small_left]  Things improved it seemed, though slowly.  But there were setbacks.  Each day was different, and our son’s mental well-being brought constant anxiety. The trauma of my illness, and the emotional distress my words had caused that day in the hospital, created severe repercussions with my son. Read More…

Extreme Nausea Starts its Night-Shift of Torture

[headline_arial_small_centered color=”#000000″]There Is No Bad Day[/headline_arial_small_centered] [headline_tahoma_small_left color=”#000000″]Jumping The Gun[/headline_tahoma_small_left]  The ‘felt so good to be home’ part swiftly faded unfortunately.  I went straight to my bed to lie down when I got home.  Nan fed me some chicken, rice and veggies in bed.  And not an hour later my stomach locked up on me Read More…

Is Starving Worse Than Drowning?

[headline_arial_small_centered color=”#000000″]There Is No Bad Day[/headline_arial_small_centered] [headline_tahoma_medium_centered color=”#000000″]Chapter 7 – Clawing Out Of The Pit[/headline_tahoma_medium_centered]   [headline_tahoma_small_left color=”#000000″]Still Starving[/headline_tahoma_small_left] I wonder, is starving worse than drowning?  I don’t know for sure, but I would guess it is.  Because drowning can only last a couple minutes, and starving can go on for days and weeks even!  Read More…

“If You’re Going Through Hell, Keep Going!”

[headline_arial_small_centered color=”#000000″]There Is No Bad Day[/headline_arial_small_centered] [headline_tahoma_small_left color=”#000000″]Begging Forgiveness[/headline_tahoma_small_left] I wallowed in self-loathing, but it couldn’t last.  I couldn’t die.  I couldn’t vanish.  I already shed every tear inside me.  All that remained was to act. I called Nan to apologize, but she wasn’t answering.  I left an apology message, begging for her forgiveness.  And Read More…

Extinction Can Be Enticing

Here’s the latest post in… [headline_arial_small_centered color=”#000000″]There Is No Bad Day[/headline_arial_small_centered] (For clarity, in case you are just now seeing these posts…this is the middle of my story from 2012 that I’m writing.  to start at the beginning, click on the link above and you can scroll through the posts in order with the links Read More…

Certainly THAT Was A Bad Day Right?

[headline_arial_small_centered color=”#000000″]There Is No Bad Day[/headline_arial_small_centered] That was definitely the most painful day of my life.  I feel like I keep saying that.  Do I keep saying that?  Well, if so, it’s because it’s true.  I was on a multi-month long escalator of pain that kept getting worse.   Words cannot do justice to the pain Read More…

The 3rd Time Is NOT A Charm, Trust Me ;)

[headline_arial_small_centered color=”#000000″]There Is No Bad Day[/headline_arial_small_centered] I had a reprieve then for 30 minutes or so.  And then they informed me they needed to do a CT scan in order to get a better look at what was going on in there. I didn’t think I could do it.  I knew from the CT scan Read More…

Chapter 6 – A Journey Through Hell

[headline_arial_small_centered color=”#000000″]There Is No Bad Day[/headline_arial_small_centered] [headline_tahoma_small_left color=”#000000″]Peace Amidst the Rage[/headline_tahoma_small_left] That evening Nan went out with the kids to a gathering with some friends and sent me this text: “Sometimes the Lord calms the storm.  Sometimes he lets the storm rage and calms the soul.” The storm was certainly raging for us at this Read More…

They Shall Mount Up With Wings As Eagles

I still ordered the gluten free options.  I couldn’t bring myself to go back to eating gluten yet after everything I had read decrying it as a gut inflammatory with huge negative consequences.  So that week I ordered the gluten free burger and in my starved condition it was simply delicious.  And I ordered the Read More…